The Words Unspoken…..
May 4. 2012
I wanted to say it so bad. I wanted to just look her in the eye and tell her that I love her, but for the sake of keeping the current status of our friendship, I didn’t. I didn’t want to push her away and lose her like I have so many times before. She means too much for me to commit that mistake again. I hate that she can so easily expose this side of me. I hate that with her I can be myself without the fear of being judged or ridiculed. I hate that I still care for her even when I know I shouldn’t, when i know that the consequences of me caring for her usually end up with me getting hurt, but yet that is never enough to keep me from being concerned for her, even when she isn’t about herself. She said she cared for me too, and for the first time I actually believed her. I guess after five years of knowing each other we developed some sort of innate sense of looking after one another, even against our will. What happened tonight was really unexpected. We began talking about our live, what we’ve been doing, and I felt we were being truly sincere for the first time. I don’t know whether what was promised tonight is really going to be seen through, we’ll have to see, but this is for certain, whatever happens, my feelings for this amazing woman will always remain the same, and I will always be there for her.
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Decidete - East Side Agents
Estos momentos y lo que estoy viviendo no me dejan respirar no me dejan explicar
lo que yo siento por ti es algo lindo y sincero, disculpa es lo que siento.
es algo proivido pero no, no lo puedo evitar
Pero si no me quieres tendre que cambiar mi vida
contestando tus secretos deja de decir mentiras
dime si me quieres o dejare de esperar
viviremos nuestras caricias, contesta ya mi amor
todos mi suenos y lo que yo siento lo tengo que ocultar
porque sera?
porque mi vida a cambiado tanto desde que tu estas
pero si no me quieres tendre que cambiar mi vida
contestando tus secretos deja de decir mentiras
dime si me quieres o dejare de esperar
viviremos nuestras caricias, contesta ya mi amor!
Check out my band’s, East Side Agents, new album and tell us what you think!
With You - East Side Agents
When I’m with you, I’m left speechless, thoughts run in and out of my head, I could never find the right words to say
When I’m in your arms nothing really matters, my whole world completely changes, our hearts start racing, and there’s no stoping, there’s no one in this world just you and I
There’s no other place to be, there’s no other place to go, we have found where we want to be, I don’t wanna leave your side, I just wanna stay here with you.
When our hands join, they fit together, perfectly like to pieces of a puzzle, I have finally found whats been missing
When our lips meet, the passion rises, emotions yelled out through each kiss, through out each touch, through out each look, through out each moment we share
There’s no other place to be, there’s no other place to go, we have found where we want to be, I don’t wanna leave your side, I just wanna stay here with you, here with you.
So i just realized i haven’t written much on this blog so i guess i’ll post something of interest, or atleast something, today even though not much has been going lately. I have officially a month and two days left of high school which have the potential to either be the best or most boring time of life. Prom is in a few weeks. Allready have date and payed transportation to and from the venue. I should be getting my tux sometime this week or next weekend (still don’t understand why jessica picked Coral for her dress cause now i have to match with it :/). Uh what else…oh APs ended this week and honestly i didn’t stress out as much as i thought i would, or as much as i should have like my fellow class mates did. If i passed or failed doesn’t matter atleast i learned alot by just sitting in class and having conversations with my teachers. Also lately I’ve been enjoying life to the fullest with zero drama and almost zero stress. I got a great friend back from the “dead” and she’s made things alot happier and laid back. Uhh what else?……..Tonight is Jazzy Bingo at Wilcox where both jazz bands play our sets while our parents, grandparents, friends, and old people play bingo and indulge in a sea of “fun and laughter.” I personally just enjoy kicking back with the bros in between sets doing stupid shit and i’m really not looking forward to playing…..meh we’ll see how tonight goes.
